Faded Enthusiasms
And
Yet your voice was here—
just there-here in our dream you shining eyes who dazzled twice, already timed,
to the country, field laid waste, election blaze, illness wasting a brain, a mind. Mars, and ocean, feelings and emotions canceled. Cream and streamers, canceled,
Your smell and us your I and me and us
Faded
The castle of our fantasy
The all that was dream but a an illusion
Your wild fantasy us
but like a print on sand in a stormy weather
makes you laugh the laughter of the mutilated the one we shared in the past life
like mountain springs volcano
Tornado and the Disaster
The Always and forever
Became the Anyways and never
Vows canceled
Promised forgotten
censored. “I am,” you said, though your skin flickered
to hackberry bark, or as bullet pierced pineal gland, blinking out your day-night clock. Your syllables
endure frail days, which blow through equinox, dissipate, time out—
you imagined the planet with you already gone:
a sad expression, no real loss, the earth still a wild salon,
But the the pyre you lighted was way to early and nothing but a self suicide
yet the name you chose
is etched into air,
a violent wind parts my chest, tenderviolet, electric
nights in our sheets,
In my wallet and watch no longer countable, unrecounted. You, here, again,
my is-are-were, have-been-is, in my
arms, bed is-was our house-eyes, in my only thought only root only gone, my big only gone still here voice blazing, I mourn you-her,
Still you but no more
Planet itself I created under you but not you anymore
her-you, who were born-dreamed into the world’s thicket yet reinvented through an inner radiance, the radiance of a name, the name that is yours, the radiance that is-was yours that is-was you
The unseen end and the unkown bill
The regret of a generation
NOBYE was the spark of the Pyre and I will see your soul going while I left with no choices and power but a memory that will never fade like your words .

Hicham Mneimne
TBC
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