Why do you blog?
When I actually started , it was including a part of my legacy plan and one of the hardest .
I never was able to express the Defeat I was in .
A defeat that rate of human can get up after .
There is types of defeats in life .
But there is that one type , where you been running . And defeating obstacles with full confidence and with a clear vision seeing the finishing line .
Years running and consuming all the energy and all the strength with full of challenging and complicated rout .
And then you reached to the finish line with a smile on your face , exhausted but happy inside , that you have made the first place .
And one of a sudden when you are expecting a bottle of water and a hurray congratulations cheer up .
Water while am thirsty didn’t come , I looked behind to see where are the rest of the competitors, I saw a dessert with mud , I searched for the special once that I was racing for , I also did not find .
I looked under my feet to see the finishing line , I saw a rope am hanging on down a very deep cliff , that even reacting or shaking will make me loose my life .
Should I tell you more about that type of defeat ?
Ok I’m a short sentence ( the type of defeat where you got no more energy left to even get of bed and need help for that )
That type of defeat some feel it the same way am expressing and some feel it less . Depends on how much was wining blinding and thriving for that made you no see any red flag along the run .
So when I decided to come here and type or write I wanted to creat a legacy and I manifested to live I manifested to creat something for myself , I manifested that all the energy and all the love , all what has happened to turn it and to win , even by only typing what has happened and file is a book .
And that needed a lot of courage to re feel the defeat every time I write about .
And I have started with what I always feared about . And decided to change and switch completely different as I was before the defeat .
2 things that I felt need to be changed in order to for me to prepare for the next 5 years confirmed battle of win .
1 -I started with a deleting and changing a very long career with Executive management positions and achievements (hotelier )
And turn my hobby to a new career regardless any challenges or a no income situation . I believed in it all my life and when I did this move , 30 June 2023 no one who knows me believed . And yes I did , because I even discovered it was not what I really love and art is what I love and do all my life . and trust me in few month after I discovered that I had more art work than I ever had about a 22 years career progress .
Secondly I decided to start break fears , the fear of being Judged and misunderstand and here is when I presented the way of raw typing and in a broken English but as usual nothing but a true story nothing but truth , not seeking fame or wealth at this stage but to break the fear .
and I asked myself Will I be understood wrongly like how it use to happen , when I express myself in real life verbal or written ?
Till now I found a lot of people in here that understanding what am saying and without judgement… I know it’s like a fairy tale thing , finding a quick and positive outcome in a short time that has made me write on daily basis was . yes , blogging and writing and expressing myself how I am and how it is , was wrong to the wrong crowd . The wrong friend ship wrong relations and toxic environments .
And work is on progress , and am grateful to this place and to the people reader and writer who been supporting without raising my hand or ask for help . I will keep doing best to work on the English and to make sure of sharing my feelings and soon my win .
The message here : forgive my English but whoever out there feeling defeated , oppressed , seeing darkness , I want to say to them , you worth more than what they made you think of you are . Stand up and believe that , this is not the end , we were born free we were born to live and to be happy and defeat is for the Brave as cowards Donot enter battles . TBC hm
I love you all ❤️
I opened the profile July and 1k view in one month , can only be a proof for those a scared to break their fears .

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